Not making much sense today.
We are buying nothing today, as is our tradition. But at this point, it's nothing but a gesture. We have bigger things to worry about. We've been too preoccupied with symbols and clever little protests. We white people enjoy that kind of fun. Makes us feel good and right with the world, like not shopping at WalMart and recycling.
Thanksgiving was pleasant enough, but after helping out with the cooking and serving, socializing and eating too much, I came home and slept around the clock. All of us were in varying degrees of shock. Our personal lives are so good; we are busy, useful, some still working, engaged with friends and family, traveling, enjoying all kinds of projects. We are privileged white people. But gloom hovers over us as we think of the years to come.
I notice that I can't depend on my sense of taste any more to make food that tastes good, so I have to rely more on recipes. This is one of those things about old age that is a surprise.
I was struck with sadness when I saw a photo on Facebook of a family having Thanksgiving dinner in a Portland restaurant. They are plain people. They do not have white skin. Everyone around them was giving them the gimlet eye. This is now their everyday experience. The stress must be terrible.
My little town. I don't even know why this came to mind.
Well, I am obviously not in a good frame of mind.
More: Had a long talk with my brilliant sister this a.m. and am feeling better. She says if Stein can push things along, that's all to the good.* We also talked about the chances of California going it alone. The problem is that the state is full of reactionaries, always has been, especially in the Central Valley and Northern Californian white enclaves. It seems that if the state government can continue to function, there may be hope. But that's just "may." She is wondering if that man will be able to get the military on his side. When he becomes the Commander in Chief, will they be compelled to follow his orders? She thinks not, because even military are not obliged to break the law if they are ordered to. (Remember Nuremberg?)
*I remain skeptical, especially when I look at this. Maybe Stein's not all that smart, or not smart enough to handle what she's gotten herself into. That's the kindest way of looking at it, I guess. And of course she loves attention.